2016: My Own Zahir (Maybe)


Whew! In a few days, 2016 is over. Where did all the time go? I look back and wonder if this year, I made use of my time better. Or did history repeat itself once again? Did I seize opportunities to truly live? Or did I move through life like a zombie, a walking dead oblivious to everything but its survival? 
(My walking dead face)
I can never tell really. 

I know you'd think how can that be. You know your life. You got your memories. You have photos. How can you say you don't know whether you've lived a life worth remembering? 

Because memories can be tricky.

The human brain is such an amazing specimen. It is capable of so many things even making you believe things your heart don't. It can give thousands of reasons to justify actions you wouldn't have done otherwise if you've had half the guts and heart to walk away or choose differently.

But then, the moment passes by and we move on. That is the beauty of life after all.

And that is what this rhetoric is all about. We may lament the things we did and didn't do or try to cling to memories that bring us joy then weigh which tips the scale further up. Whichever it was, we decide whether we had a good year or not. But that's where we all fail for life is not meant to be lived that way. 
Looks pretty good to me.
Pretty good year indeed.
In Paulo Coelho's The Zahir, the narrator was discussing about abandoning one's personal history and creating space for new ones. 
"By repeating it out loud in meticulous detail. As as we tell our story, we say goodbye to what we were and, as you'll see if you try, we create a space for a new, unknown world. We repeat the old story over and over again until it is no longer important to us."
" Is that all?"
 "There is just one other thing: as those spaces grow, it is important to fill them up quickly, even if provisionally, so as to not be left with a feeling of emptiness."
 "How?"
 "With different stories, with experiences we never dared to have or didn't want to have. That is how we change. That is how love grows. And when love grows, we grow with it."

And my point is? It's pretty simple really. There's no point in trying to decide whether 2016 was great for you or not. You've told your stories countless of times. It's time to let it go as we let go of the year that was. It's time to create space for new memories and stories as the new year begins. 

In the book, the narrator asked Mikhael if he'll lose the important memories when he begins to let go of his personal history to which Mikhael replied, 
"Never. The important things always stay; what we lose are the things we thought were important but which are, in fact, useless, like the false power we use to control the energy of love."
Just like the narrator, I fear I will forget things if I don't look back and try to understand how my year had been. But then again, that's what friends and families and photographs are for. The truly important ones never fade. As long as you have love in your heart, it will always be there.
Unforgettable memories. 
Weirdos forever <3

Ohana <3

So as we end 2016, let us all let go of our personal history. Let's create spaces for new memories and stories as we begin 2017. Let us not be slaves to regrets, false hopes and our past. Life has so much to give. The question is: Are you ready to take it? 

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